Baby 3.0 - 40w6d

I've been neglecting this blog, but really wanted to get my thoughts down before our family changes again <3

I am hopefully days (hours, minutes...please!!!) away from delivering our third and final baby. This is such a bitter/sweet time for me that i often wish i could freeze these days and remember always how it feels RIGHT NOW!

Munchkin: You are amazing! Amazing, and spastic! How does one child have so much endless energy, wonder and creativity? I feel awful throwing out your artwork that just piles and piles up on the counter and in folders and drawers! I love your little notes to me, daddy, little bear and blue, and i love that for Valentines day you want to make your school friends heart shaped valentines each with their own special message. Car rides always entail lengthy make believe story which i really REALLY do try and follow 70% of the time! Thank you for always helping us around the house and being so willing to take out the trash, set the table and help mommy. Its so fun to hear about your tales from school and the complex dynamic first relationships that you are forming. Just last week your friend Anna left her gloves on the bus so you grabbed them and begged me to drive you to her house to drop them off. I'm so proud of you for always being so caring and loving, so of course we took the short drive down the road to drop off Anna's gloves. You are sensitive and thoughtful and so sweet and loving with your little brother, and i have no doubt that you will be an equally amazing big sister to this new baby. Always know that you can be and do whatever you want to be. Remember, the important things DO take a lot of hard work but are so worth it!

Little Bear: Oh my little man, how special you are. Such a boy and soooo much like daddy! Just yesterday as i left for work you were getting out of bed to come into our room. "You going to work mama?" "Yup, I'm going to work." "Ok, i sleep with daddy, shut off the light!" JUST like your daddy; would prefer to sleep in a cave where as i have (NEED) night lights all around the house! I love our days together reading the same books over and over (Go dogs go, the firetruck book and Things that go), playing the matching game, puzzles and our afternoon naps. When i was pregnant with you I remember laying in munchkins bed, cuddled up tight, and literally feeling you wiggling between us. It made me sad at the time to think of that new baby (YOU!) that was coming into our lives and may change my relationship with your sister. Here i am again with you, and during those daily naps on the couch i often feel this baby wiggling (You call it JUMPING!), and i now know that yes things will change i also know how much this sibling will add to your life and how beneficial it will be to learn the delicate art of waiting your turn, and patience and sharing. Something, dont tell your sister this, that already comes easier to you than munchkin! You are so outgoing and adventurist, and I can already tell that you'll be riding your bike on 2 wheels this summer and flinging yourself off the dock at nana and poppie's lake house! Since day 1 you have given me an outsiders look into the mind of men, and i love raising a little boy! I love being a mommy to you! Could you please just knock it off with all the poopy talk? K Thanks!

I keep asking daddy how our house could possibly get ANY louder at night. I simply cannot imagine having 3 children running laps, pushing dump trucks and playing puppy and kitty....and I'm pretty sure it may be this noise that is keeping your little brother and sister inside just a tad bit longer! But, i will treasure this time. I never feel more confident in my skin than when i am pregnant, i dont know why that is...but i love seeing my body change and i love feeling my babies move. I keep telling myself that this will be the last time i will be pregnant with one of my babies (have considered being a surrogate in the future - but thats a whole other blog!) and have them all to myself. Of course i love to cuddle and smell and nurse a squishy newborn, but there is nothing like knowing this new little person is with me, inside me, every day feeling my feeling and experiencing my life from within. It always amazes me how after birth i look at my new baby and think "Of COURSE...it was YOU!" It shouldn't surprise me though, for after all during these months not only have you felt and gotten to know me, but i have felt and learned about you in a way that only a mother could understand.

Take your time little one, for i trust you to know when you are ready to join our family. Until then i will treasure every kick and try and ignore the inability to take a deep breath, the pain of walking with a feeling that my hips will dislocate at any moment, and the 30 minute process of finding a comfortable sleeping position at night! These discomforts are all fleeting and while i might complain and MAY be a bit more cranky these last few weeks, i know that it is all worth it for YOU!

Daddy has just one request...please come before or after Sunday because he REALLY wants to watch the super bowl. Just had to throw that out there for his sake. As for me, any time! We cant wait to meet you and have your sweet voice add to the crazy noise of our little home!